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I was a bit dramatic on the other entry..yeah but im feeling way much better now..after spending the weekend with dan..he makes me feel all better..and im so happy and proud of him cos he finally told his parents about the baby ..cos he was worried about hes dad not taking it so well thats why he kept it a secert from them for the past eight months..and which I totally understud I never pressured him to tell them it was all on him and it just feels so good to know that we dont have to hide it anymore and keep it a secert and dan said his dad took it very well and wants to meet me again...cos dan call'd me on late at night on sunday and told me he had just told his dad and I was just like sooooooooooo happy..and then I got a call from his mom on monday afternoon and shes so nice shes really happy about the baby and we talkd for a bit and she offered her support and it made me feel really good..cos Ive met Dans mom and dad before but its been awhile since I seen them so on saturday me and my moms are gonna go to dans and share the pictures of the baby from the 3d ultrasound and the movie with them its gonna be so nice...a lots happend this weekend a lot of big changes..and I just thank God everyday for giving me a loving supportive family and friends and boyfriend to help me threw it all cos I dont know what I would do without them...<3
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| to much drama. |
[16 Oct 2004|01:09pm] |
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I dunno I feel emotionally and pyschically like shit right now..like theres to much goin on its to much stress..like things between me and christina are so fuckin weird I dont even know anymore..I really need to talk to her..and then its just like everyones pissing me off..and then I cant stand being away from dan I worry about him to much its mostly the drinking thing and since hes 21 now I worry even more..its like I trust him with my heart and I know he wouldnt fuck up on me..but the thing is I have a hot boyfriend and I dont trust drunk sluts around him especially when hes out partyin without me..and then im im really excited I only have five more weeks till I have my baby but im kinda scared at the same time..and I just feel so ugly and fat right now ahhh..I just need to stop feeling sorry for myself but its just to much to take in at once
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| pictures from the other night. |
[13 Oct 2004|12:50pm] |
so heres the pictures from the Between the buired and me show...and the one of my dress..yup cos I really dont have much to write..just that im lookin forward to this weekend w/ dan cos were gonna go out for his b-day since we couldnt yesterday cos he had to work...ok thats all the end.
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| I'm gonna have such a cute fuckin kid |
[13 Oct 2004|12:20pm] |
ok so the other day Dan brought his baby book and awwww he was sucha cute baby..and fer sho hes still cute right now but you know what I mean right..yeah and I was a cute baby too so OMG I cant wait to see what Darons gonna look like..just look at how fuckin cute dans baby picture is..<3
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| MY WEEKEND!! |
[11 Oct 2004|01:10am] |
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I had a good weekend...friday was chill I didnt really do anything..and saturday I got up early and went with my cuz robert to practice driving im good its just I get nervous around other cars...then after that I went over to my dads cos they were having a lil family get together for my step bro Raul...and dan went to.. well he meet up with me there and he met my dad and the fam..everyone was nice about it so it was cool..yeah and I was sooooo happy cos he pass'd my dads "test" yeah my dad likes him and the rest of the fam seem'd to like him to..well dans such a good guy whats not to like..it was so good to see him..cos I didnt get to see him last weekend ...fuck I love him so much we need to move out together already SERIOUS..I cant stand being away from him..its like we spend the weekends together and any of his other free days cos he has two jobs and works a lot... im so proud of him hes really responsible..yeah but when he has to leave to go home and he hugs me n' kisses me bye..I get all sad when he drives off..ahhhhhhh what can I say im so selfish I want him all to myself hahah but I gotta wait a few more months or maybe even a year :/..yeah then right when I saw him drive up to my dads on saturday I got all happy..and he look'd so hot he got some highlights it was lookin mad hot..yeah and I gave him his early b-day pres..it was all hair products I bought from the salon..cos hes always complaining bout his hair that it wont go the way he wants it..and hey I think its cool when guys care bout their apperance its a definite turn on...cos I take care of myself and im always all doll'd up for him..oh I was wearin some new black dress I got dan like it a lot I took some pix in it so I'll post em later..its really cute my sis patty taliored it a lil for me....yeah and dans always lookin all sexy for me so its a mutial thing..oh and he bought me this really tyte Tupac poster I luv it..and he got me a love ends suicide shirt its really cool yup ...so saturday was nice he spent the night and stuff I love havin him next to me ..oh and we streched his ears I say we cos he did it together lol yeah but it looks good...then he left in the morning and was coming back later cos I also got him tix for his b-day to go see converge and between the buired and me..so he came back..oh and some jackass hit the back of his car that afternoon a lil after he left my house.. he was showin me and my sisters I was just like fuck thank God hes didnt get hurt..and thank God I wasnt in the car..yeah but his car kinda got a few lil nicks in the back but nothin big..yeah so then we went to the glasshouse and it was a good fuckin show ..CONVERGE, SCARS OF TOMARROW AND BETWEEN THE BUIRED AND ME were so fuckin good...dan took some really good pix I need to upload em tomarrow..yeah but it was a lot of fun and dans so good to me awww hes always so sweet and stuff I love that guy I have the best boyfriend ever!!...well I should be in bed I gotta get up early early to go to that docs to check up on my baby Daron..aite well thats it..the end
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| IM SELLIN STUFF!!! FOR CHEAP!! |
[08 Oct 2004|07:21pm] |
help me get rid of this shiot!!
if your intrested in buyin anything your gonna have to come to me so yeah...if you got any more questions ask me ina comment or e-mail me at dementiaofhorror@yahoo.com ...and you can see more stuff under the l-j cut...ok thats all thanx
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Everythings going so good...I never been this happy in my life..I mean like things are really starting to look up..my love life is sooo good..and im excited about my baby on the way...plus I went and look'd at apartments the other day...and I just took care of a lot of important things..I just wanna move out already and start my new life...plus ima be drivng soon watch outtt...haha the end
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| i was being a photo whore. |
[23 Sep 2004|08:04pm] |
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I dunno today was meh...im ina weird mood.. i miss dan :/...anyway I took lots of pictures..the end..
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| ..dans my sexy boy.. |
[23 Sep 2004|01:31am] |
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lets see so whats new...well it looks like ima be moving out soon pry like to west covina or la puente I dunno I gotta talk to dan about it...fuck i just wanna move out ASAP things will be so much better..alls I know is that me and dan living alone whewwwwww we's gonna be freaks...cos me and dan are horndogs/pervs so we perfect fo' each other...plus that and I love that nig too awww yeah... and thats pretty much it im just looking forward to the weekend cos I get to see dan and plus ima go see Earn your keep @ 51 buckingham on sunday..and pry go see Ghostories on saturday some party in pomona..
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| this is my baby. |
[21 Sep 2004|12:06am] |
Everyone meet Daron Ari Nunez <3</center>
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[20 Sep 2004|12:58am] |
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[19 Sep 2004|11:53am] |
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Friday:
hung out with Nana, Fabi and Patty at first we went to this gig in bladwin park it was fuckin wack tho so we left...went over to the edwards in west covina..then we ending up gettin directions to another gig goin on in pomona so we went...got there late..miss'd Ghostories :( but saw some other really good bands and it was just cool to chill with the ladies...and I saw Mike and finally said hi..Mikes so fuckin cool and easy to talk to yeah but ima go see them play next sunday..its gon be tyte cos I havent seen Earn your keep since they playd at my pad haha and thats a longgggg time...yeah but their playin at 51 buckingham..I like that club its nice..kinda hot in thurr tho.
Saturday:
My cuz Nina had a passion party I was only there for like 30 minutes but it was cool..for those that dont know what a passion party is its a party for girls only and they sell sexy gifts like..adult toys..lubes and oils..candles..and lingerie..then dan came to pick me up it was funny tho when he came to the door all the girls there at the party were like joking around sayin is this the stripper woooo take it off..it was funny so I left with dan and we went to 51 buckingham its in pomona..and we saw tyranny, and a love ends suicide..we left after that it was a really good show and I saw a lot of friends there it was cool I wish I had my cam tho..damn dan look'd hot like always he was wearing my red track jacket..aww and he said I look'd hot..cos I got all sex'd up for him I wore this really cute dress..its black with aqua dots on it..and it had a lil aqua bow..its like a hluter top dress and I wore some fishnet maryjanes and a lil sweater..whatch I'll take pictures in it soon its a cute dress..then after the show we went back to my cousin Nina's house cos I wanted to drop off my ID cos my sis patty wanted to use it to go out clubbin..so we went and by that time that passion party was over so me and dan went in for a few then we came home cos I wanted to watch the live webcast of the inland invasion..we miss'd Morrissey :( but I caught the ending of Siouxsie..then after that me and dan talk'd then we went to bed *wink wink* but as you can see my current mood is pleased hmmm I wonder why...yeah I love dan so much..I remember when me and him were at my cousin tasha's wedding the priest said something like.."you dont choose your partner God choose them for you and when you find that person you will know" well dan said when he was sayin that that it was weird cos thats how he feels about me and I was like awww cos I was thinkin that same exact thing too..ive known dan since late 99' but me and him were just friends..we didnt start foolin around till 2003 but im glad we found each other..cos I cant think of anyone more perfect for me then him...and were so much alike and thats why things workout so good for us...and thats why I got so emotional at the weddin cos just the thought that thats gonna be me and Dan someday was the most beautifulest feeling ever!! our love is real <3
Sunday:
I woke up early...dan left at 10am..and I'm pry just gonna bum it all day and listen to some music..and dick around on tha computer...yeahhhhhhhhhh
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| I hate distance. |
[15 Sep 2004|10:03pm] |
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yes it keeps me away from so much...but if I fuckin drove already it would be ok..yeah ima be driving tho fer sure next month..then I can go see dan more cos I hate that I have to wait till the weekends to see him..but I understand cos he works a lot and has school..so I cherish the time we spend together..damn I just miss him and I just saw him this past saturday...fuck this I just need to move out with him already but I gotta wait till next year ima get a lil apartment and hes gonna move in with me probably in april or may..damn I want him really badly right now if ya know what I mean hahah...well ima see him this weekend so yeah ..cos on saturday ima go see A. love ends suicide and Broken front with him in pomona..plus theres gonna be lots of other bands so its gonna be tyte...well im out
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| Don't take life for granted... |
[13 Sep 2004|11:33pm] |
I'm sitting here listening to Morrissey, which is Jeremiah's favorite band and I went and saw him yesterday in the hospital. It was my second time seeing him after his accident, it was just really hard for me to see him like that. I mean he has been doing a lot better since the crash, he opens his eyes and talks a little now. I just keep praying for him and his family everyday, Jeremiah is such a beautiful person. I never met anyone like him he's just such a good person and has this thing to were he could met a total stranger and and have you leaving thinking he's your long lost best friend. I met Jeremiah in jr. high we went to jones together, and yeah I'd see him around at school but didn't really start talking to him till our mom's Betty and Louise became best friends. Then after that I would see Jeremiah at school and at my house all the time it's just so fun to be around him even on your most worst days he'll make you forget it all and just laugh. He's just such a good friend to me I love him like he's family to me, he's pretty much like a cousin to me and his family is just such wonderfull people I love them all. It's just so sad this had to happen to someone like Jeremiah, but like they say everything happens for a reason so I guess we will find out the reason for all this after Jeremiah makes him full recovery. And I just keep praying for that every night for him to make his full recovery. And I'll just keep goin and visiting him in the hospital till that day comes, cause it was so nice to see him smile yesterday and just to see he's doing better and hear him talk. I wish I could go visit him more but hes in the hostial over on sunset in Hollywood which is kinda ironic cause everyone calls Sheddy a rockstar cause he has rockstar hair. It just makes me hurt to know this could have all been preventable, thats why I hope anyone who reads this Please! do not drink and drive it is not worth it. Life is to precious to lose over drinking, and this made me realize tomarrow is not promised so make the best of your days, tell your loved ones you love them more often cause you never know when someone could be taken from you. So to anyone reading this please if your gonna drink please be safe, and don't take your life for granted, tell your family and friends you love them more often. Thank you for reading, remember to keep Jeremiah Saiz in your prayers, I love you all.
Love your friend,
Martha Amanda Nunez
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| life is good. |
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Yes it is...well first off I am happy to repost that my friend Jereimah is doing better he opened his eyes and is talking now so I'm so happy for him and his family and just keep praying for his full recovery..and then me and Dan awww things are going so so good I Love his so much and wanna spend the rest of my life with him we were talking about that stuff at my cousin Tasha's wedding..oh and me and him not to be consided but we look'd good..dan look'd like a rockstar haha well he is one duh..fuck I cant wait till I move out with him cos I cant take being away from him im so selfish I want him all the time...yes but I'm happy to say that me and him and happily in Love...and our son Daron is doing good he just keeps growing and growing and kickin me haha it feels funny..oh I got these really good pictures of him from some 3d ultrasound place I went to..and you can see my babes sucking his thumb and sticking out his tounge..its so cute I'd share the pictures if my sis had her damn scanner pluged in :/ uhhh I'll do it some other time..yeah but thats all..well I'll leave with some pictures..losta love martha
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| drinking is pointless. |
[29 Aug 2004|06:12pm] |
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well I havent updated ina few cos I havent really been feeling so emotionally good...one of my really close friends is in the hospital do to a drinking and driving accident...I just saw him on thursday too the day it happend..I hadn't seen Jeremiah in about a few months..and me and him were starting to dirft away from what was once a very close friendship..Jeremiah is like family to me I love him like a brother...shit I grew up with him we went to the same jr. high...and I could always trust him and talk to him bout anything thats what I love about him...hes got the most awesomest personality ever!! see me and my sisters went over there to Jeremiahs house cos Jeremiahs mom Louise and my mom Betty are best friends so that is how we met him...yeah so we all went over with my mom..cos Sheddy wanted to hangout cos I hadnt seen him or talkd really good with him ina while and I was gonna help him fix up his myspace..so yeah the plan was we were all gonna get there early and the morning and spend the whole day there hanging out...but my mom had a lot of stuff to do that day so we got there around 8pm and sheddy was already sleepin so jessica and patty went to wake him up...and we were just all hanging out talkin I told Jeremiah hes gonna style and cut my babies hair and he was all excited cos sheddys really good with hair and he loves kids...yeah then I showed him my ears cos I had just streched em and he was like oh I wanna do mines and he had some 2 gauge tappers so he was like let strech them so me and patty were like ok we'll do it for you...and he was just askin me if it hurts and I was like kinda a lil..and I wish I woulda never opened my big mouth about the drinkin cos I told him "oh the first time I streched my ears I was drunk so I didnt feel shit" so after that he was like ok I'll get drunk then..so we went to the liqour store and he got some vodka and some other sparks drink...then we went back to the house and he drank it..then we were gonna do his ears but me and patty chickend out cos sheddy was makin us all nerveous..so then Hedi came and did it for him and she streched mines too...so Jeremiah was all showing his mom and my mom and then my mom was like ok girls lets go cos it was already 11pm and she had to get up early for work...so me patty, jessica and sheddy all made plans we were gonna go to a gig the next day in bladwin park pattys friend was having so we were gonna come down to bp in the morning with my moms and get ready and Sheddys and all go together...so we were sayin our goodbyes and Jeremiah said he was gonna stay up to watch the late late show cos Morrisey was gonna perform on there and he was all excitied so we left and went home...then we got here around 11:40pm and I cleaned my room got my bag ready for the next morning and went to bed...then I was woken up like a 7:20am to my mom saying "Martha get up we gotta go now Jeremiah's been in a accident" and I was still kinda sleepin so I just lyed there and was like did that really happen then I heard everyone hurryin out the door so I jumped outta bed grabbed my bags and we went to kasier right there in BP...we got there and Louise look'd really worried so I was just like prayin in my head "please god let him be ok" then she told us hes stable but just hasnt woken up...we were there at the hospital for a few hours..and when we were gettin ready to leave my mom asked me and my sis Patty if we wanted to see him cos everyone else had already been back in his room to see him...at first I was like I dunno if I could handle it..but then I was like yes I wanna see him...so we went and saw him..he was just lying there he just look'd like he was sleeping..and tears just started rolling down cos Im use to seeing Jeremiah with all smiles...I felt so bad and kinda guilty ina way for even bringing up drinking...but you see I didnt think he was gonna leave that night...well he wasnt suppose to leave cos he wanted to stay and watch Morrisey thats why when my mom told me and my sisters we were like "what...but he wasnt suppose to leave" but I guess he wanted to go out with some friends to some club but never made it there...im just so thankful he had his seat belt on...and now all I can do is pray for him to wake up and recover ok <3...that is why I say drinking is pointless..and if you do choose to drink plz be safe...love martha
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today I went to the movies saw the new exorcist it suck'd ass...my sis streched my ear ouch!!..I ate the green burrito yummmm...im mad hyper right now haha and Im on AIM talkin to a lot of peeps...and I fuckin love Dan to def!! and thats all bitch.the end.
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[24 Aug 2004|12:49am] |
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I spent all the money today well..I only got like 8 bucks left hahah..I bought a lotta shit tho..ohhhh I bought what im wearing to Tasha's wedding..its a black shirt with a skirt its hot pink and black and some new black fishnets and some cute black maryjanes...but I dunno if ima wear that or ima get a black dress and have my sis taylor it...me and dan are gonna match hes wearin a black tight fitted dress shirt a hot pink tie and some black tight slacks damnnnn son hes gonna look good I'll be sure to take lots of pictures...the weddings on sept. 4th man I cant wait its gonna be so nice...oh and I saw vannessa today awwww shes so fuckin sweet se brought me a late b-day pres its this really cute lil journal ima write all my sappy luv songs to dan in there and finally share them with him...damn im strechin my ears right now holy shit this hurts..oh well gotta get it over with..yeh well tomarrow ima hit up a few thrift stores and hopefully hang out with Nana <3...oHHHHHHHHH EARN YOUR KEEP!!! is playin this saturday ima go!! I luv that band I havent seen Mike ina long ass time I miss that foo..well im off to bed cos I gotta wake up early to go to tha docs so we can check up on my babes <3...night xoxox
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| this weekend <333 |
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was so nice cos I got to spend it with Dan we just hung out, ate, watched movies and entertained each other..oh today we went and saw Between the buried and me!! @ the showcase theater it was such a good fuckin show...only two complaints it was fuckin HOT and CROWDED..yeah but I had fun, dan had fun so thats all that matters..I took a picture of dan and the singer ohhh its gonna look so good cos their both hot..dan was wearing my new red track jacket I bought the other day it looks so good on him awww..yeah and dan took some pix of them performing but I didnt have the digital cam with me :/ so I used my other cam fuck I need to go get the pictures developed soon...so thats it no more shows for me till after Daron..I dunno tho cos dan wants me to go see Between the buried and me/ converge with him for his 21st b-day in october @ the glasshouse so we'll see..im watchin Freddy curgar damn that foo scares the shit outta me I shoulda watched this with dan...hahaha dan was tryin to scare me last night when we were lying down but im so tuff it wasnt workin lol...damn he just went home bout an hour ago I didnt want him to leave but hes got things to do tomarrow so I understand...damn I really love him a lot I'm so happy hes in my life, he makes me feel so good <3
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[21 Aug 2004|02:18pm] |
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last night we had this big-o hip hop party at my house with a dj and everything and a lot of peeps came threw..yeah cos everyone went camping and I stood home alone...yeh so dan call'd me up and was like wanna have a party and make some money so i was like fer sure...so he was chargin 2 bucks a head we made like 200$ and I wanted to split it cos he did all the work I just provided the house but he told me to keep it so yeah I gots money again ima spend it wisely tho...ima go buy what im wearing to my cousin tasha's wedding me and dan are gonna match were both wearing black and hot pink we gonna look so good..oh speaking of good damn dan was wearing his Some Girls shirt last night I was like dayum son it looks good on him and then in his tight pant and tight lil sweater well actually its mines but were gonna share it hahah..damn im so tierd cos me dan and my sis helen had to clean up the whole backyard now thats the downside in having parties..and we found a buncha shit in the grass haha I found a bag of weed I dont do that shit tho..yeah but the house looks back to the way it was before the party so thats good..now im just chillin here dan just left a lil while ago I kick'd him out haha nah not really but he had to go home but im bout to go take a shower and get ready cos ima hang out with dan again tonight <33 were just gonna chill and watch movies and have our lil sleep over...and then on sunday were gonna go see Between the buried and me!!!...damn you know what KILLED IT fuckin my moms annoying ass boyfriend is coming home early he should be gettin her ina hour :/ so hes gonna be here FUCKIN KILLED IT!!! man hes so fuckin rude I cant stand him..and I just wanted tonight to be just me and dan but noooooooooo someone had to kill it...meh well ima go take a shower..later
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